You Said You'd Come Back

Standing by the road side,
Smile at one hand
And cry in the other.
Juggling them furiously,
I was waiting for you
till the midnight.
Drenched in fear,
Wet alone the road
And standing still,
I waited.
Because you said
You'd come back...

I cried till the dawn.
Even tears seemed dry
Without you.
The salty sorrow,
I drank to the last drop.
And with swollen face,
I waited,
Because you said
You'd come back...

Standing beneath the sun,
I didn't felt the warmth.
Smiling unconsciously,
I didn't felt the happiness.
Through the broken mirror,
I look deep into myself,
And I saw none but you.
The sharp pain,
Cut my vain.
And standing half into the blood,
I waited.
Because I believed,
And you said,
You'd come back...

I searched for light,
In the lonely black night.
But end up finding darkness,
Where I felt comfort.
I envied you,
I cursed you.
But I was bounded.
Because I loved you.
And the night mocked me,
Pointing at you,
That you'll never come back.
But I was sure.
So damn sure,
That I waited
Till the last breath.
But still I believed,
Because of your words.
Once you had said,
You'd come back...

Window

Sitting by my side

myself is blaming me.

Drinking every drop of light,

darkness is craving me.

I wanted to run way,

but the doors are closed.

I threw my heart away,

and the body follows.

But loneliness is pulling me,

and my body stuck hard.

And the metal frame is eating me,

the bones tear apart...

The darkness is fighting the light,

the wall starts to move.

My heart is feeling the height,

coming down the roof.

Looking away

from the cry

I see the sky,

the birds those fly.

The grass so green

And the girl so shy.

The beauty outside

and love so high...

When i turn around,

my room was filled with pain.

I wanted to scream loud,m

but every scream was in vain..

I found envy

sitting by my side,

where there was myself,

now that he hide.

There is loneliness

all over the walls.

There is darkness,

from the roof it falls.

There is sorrow.

There is jealousy,

The room so narrow,

And blood so glossy.

Fading up, moments by moment,

I stole my sight.

I found my heart in the pavement.

Dusty, lying aside.

But, it was filled with happiness.

there was no sorrow.

I was sitting inside,

As I am looking through a window........

Sadness

Behind the shore lines

Where light emits darkness,

is where my soul lies

filled with utter emptiness.

Behind the brown-black hair

which keeps alter,

is where my heart rise,

there it takes shelter.

Behind the spontaneous smile

there hides a furious cry.

keep staring at the stars

that the moon feels shy.

Behind those puppy eyes

my heart daily cries,

is where  the pain rise

overflowing the sadness........... :(

Life These Days

Being a just-passed-out student from school, I never been so work-less before.. No studies, smoking, bikes, babes, or late night parties for 5 months.. I wonder how I am breathing till now!! And see the irony of my fate, I don't even know for how long it would be this way... Neither do I know, when my college-life will start and I will enter the most awaited chapter of my life!
Back in the school days, I had planned so much for this vacation, but when time came, nothing worthwhile happened... All i could manage was to teach a bunch of kids how to solve quadratic equations and that too in the 1st few weeks.. Then our honorable(?) chief minister Mamta Banerjee declared summer vacations for all the schools from 15th may and my students along with their parents flew away to Kashmir... Lucky they... After a few weeks being bore with the boredom, I started writing a novel.. A novel which leads you to the journey of my hostel life.... Life full of studies, smoking, bikes, babes, and late night parties... Take you to the place where my soul lies.... But cruel god ( or the board of WBJEE) threw the date of counselling in between.... And as a result, the novel has to paused on its initial few chapters... Damn college, do hell to career  ,, i just wanted to write..
But all this this way which was common in my daily routine was the hours and mega-bytes spend on my laptop surfing through the internet and visiting sites like Facebook, gmail, Facebook, twitter, Facebook, orkut, and Facebook....... The core of the fact is even if I was willing to leave Facebook, Facebook wasn't in a mood to leave me.. And as a result, my friend list became pregnant with 354 more friends!! ( I swear I am giving you the exact stats).
And another result was i came to know that there are much much more just-passed-outs who want to live these golden days in there own manner, in there own way,, but failed do so because their parents want to keep their 'gems' as close as possible..

And also, I was introduced to one more parallel world ..... The world of artistes...  They play, the sing, and they write...
I found something common between them and me... We both share the the same passion, same emotions and same creations.... Interacting to them I become known to the world of blogs, forums, and pages, where they share their views, their creations to the whole world..

Well I'm trying to do the ditto here.. I hope would find some readers who will tolerate my nonsense.... Because in any way, I will not stop vomiting the shit :)